Reason for Writing
hello cruel world,
I figured I would write this only to help myself express what I am feeling throughout the process of this pregnancy. I think my perspective will be a bit different than most as I have the added feature of depression and it will have a different twist, that I am not even sure of yet how it will progress. Hopefully not too depressing...
I was diagnosed with depression in November 2009. At first it was PTSD and I was convinced for a while that I had got over it. But, when I got into see a Psychiatrist over a year later I was informed that in fact I was still depressed. At the time I didn't believe her and refused to take medication for nearly a year but in June of 2011 I reached rock bottom (which I may write about at some time) and had nowhere to go but to medication. My GP was wonderful and the first medication he put me on was the right one and I have been slowly gaining my old life back since then! I am an exceptional multi-tasker, I am organized and I make everyone at work laugh and remain in good spirits (even though I work at a homeless shelter)! Hello, my name is Kate and I have depression and anxiety and am a fully functioning human being about to have a baby!
My goal in this process is to hopefully attach to my baby when it is born. I have a family history of post pardon depression and I don't want to be a Mom who experiences this kind of grief and suffering. I have already in life had many dark moments and I want pregnancy and child rearing to not be another one. I hope in this way writing to my unborn child and about the feelings I am having will be therapeutic and give others hope and understanding in this process.
I hope you enjoy this, even a little, and that I get out of it what I want.
I figured I would write this only to help myself express what I am feeling throughout the process of this pregnancy. I think my perspective will be a bit different than most as I have the added feature of depression and it will have a different twist, that I am not even sure of yet how it will progress. Hopefully not too depressing...
I was diagnosed with depression in November 2009. At first it was PTSD and I was convinced for a while that I had got over it. But, when I got into see a Psychiatrist over a year later I was informed that in fact I was still depressed. At the time I didn't believe her and refused to take medication for nearly a year but in June of 2011 I reached rock bottom (which I may write about at some time) and had nowhere to go but to medication. My GP was wonderful and the first medication he put me on was the right one and I have been slowly gaining my old life back since then! I am an exceptional multi-tasker, I am organized and I make everyone at work laugh and remain in good spirits (even though I work at a homeless shelter)! Hello, my name is Kate and I have depression and anxiety and am a fully functioning human being about to have a baby!
My goal in this process is to hopefully attach to my baby when it is born. I have a family history of post pardon depression and I don't want to be a Mom who experiences this kind of grief and suffering. I have already in life had many dark moments and I want pregnancy and child rearing to not be another one. I hope in this way writing to my unborn child and about the feelings I am having will be therapeutic and give others hope and understanding in this process.
I hope you enjoy this, even a little, and that I get out of it what I want.